Think about it.

*Bee Gees' I've Gotta Get a Message to You playing while I'm typing this.*

Today is really a sad day. I don't know why. Have you ever got that feeling wherein you just felt sad suddenly? I was in McDonald's this afternoon with my friends and I swear everything was totally fine. My friends and I rode the bus and then they got off at their usual stops. I was left alone and that's when I started feeling gloomy. I was thinking about this someone who I think is really an angel. And because he is such an angel (I swear, he is!), I can't bring myself to get close to him. Why? Because I don't want to miss him later coz I know I'll never have him. I don't want to have him. The reason? I am not a good girl. I do some shitty stuff. And if I get close to him, I may just ruin him. I am a devil. He is an angel. If I get close to him, I may burn his wings and that will cause his downfall. I never ever want that to happen to someone who I like.

So yeah, that is all what's bothering me. Pretty simple and soft, I know. But hey! Nothing is simple and soft when it comes to love!

I'm feeling a little better now. Compared to the "problems" of other people, mine is so simple. I mean, other people are thinking about tougher stuff. It's winter and some people has nowhere to stay. It's already 10:54PM and some people haven't eaten their dinner yet, and maybe their lunch, too. Somewhere, a pregnant teenager may be thinking of aborting her child. Or a kid may be tempted to try drugs. See? Compared to other people, even though I am really heartbroken and sad, I am still lucky. Well at least my heart, even though it's broken, is still beating. And I have a roof above my head, I am still full, I am clean from any drugs and yes after doing this blog, I am going to lie down in my comfortable bed. Being heartbroken is way, way luckier than other people, don't ya think.

Oh well. *Jay-Z's Young Forever blasting from the speakers right now*

So yeah. There you are. Maybe I should stop over reacting from a brokenheart and just be thankful that I'm luckier than other people.