The worst feelings in life...

• Being told that someone is better than you
• Knowing that you're being lied to
• Letting yourself be beat down
• Crying hard
• Losing someone close
• Watching yourself fade away
• Falling apart because you're alone
• Being alone because you're falling apart
• Hating yourself
• Not being good enough
• Being told that she's prettier
• Being mad at someone because you're mad at yourself
• Best friends falling apart
• Being told that you are fat
• Breaking up
• Falling out of love
• Being used
• Being made fun of
• Changing to be accepted by someone else
• Realizing that he doesn't love you

• Falling asleep alone when he should be next to you

Do you agree?

50 Interesting Facts

1. If you are right handed, you will tend to chew your food on your right side. If you are left handed, you will tend to chew your food on your left side.

2. If you stop getting thirsty, you need to drink more water. For when a human body is dehydrated, its thirst mechanism shuts off.

3. Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying.

4. Your tongue is germ free only if it is pink. If it is white there is a thin film of bacteria on it.

5. The Mercedes-Benz motto is “Das Beste oder Nichts” meaning “the best or nothing”.

6. The Titanic was the first ship to use the SOS signal.

7. The pupil of the eye expands as much as 45 percent when a person looks at something pleasing.

8. The average person who stops smoking requires one hour less sleep a night.

9. Laughing lowers levels of stress hormones and strengthens the immune system. Six-year-olds laugh an average of 300 times a day. Adults only laugh 15 to 100 times a day.

10. The roar that we hear when we place a seashell next to our ear is not the ocean, but rather the sound of blood surging through the veins in the ear.

11. Dalmatians are born without spots.

12. Bats always turn left when exiting a cave.

13. The ‘v’ in the name of a court case does not stand for ‘versus’, but for ‘and’ (in civil proceedings) or ‘against’ (in criminal proceedings).

14. Men’s shirts have the buttons on the right, but women’s shirts have the buttons on the left.

15. The owl is the only bird to drop its upper eyelid to wink. All other birds raise their lower eyelids.

16. The reason honey is so easy to digest is that it’s already been digested by a bee.

17. Roosters cannot crow if they cannot extend their necks.

18. The color blue has a calming effect. It causes the brain to release calming hormones.

19. Every time you sneeze some of your brain cells die.

20. Your left lung is smaller than your right lung to make room for your heart.

21. The verb “cleave” is the only English word with two synonyms which are antonyms of each other: adhere and separate.

22. When you blush, the lining of your stomach also turns red.

23. When hippos are upset, their sweat turns red.

24. The first Harley Davidson motorcycle was built in 1903, and used a tomato can for a carburetor.

25. The lion that roars in the MGM logo is named Volney.

26. Google is actually the common name for a number with a million zeros.

27. Switching letters is called spoonerism. For example, saying jag of Flapan, instead of flag of Japan.

28. It cost 7 million dollars to build the Titanic and 200 million to make a film about it.

29. The attachment of the human skin to muscles is what causes dimples.

30. There are 1,792 steps to the top of the Eiffel Tower.

31. The sound you hear when you crack your knuckles is actually the sound of nitrogen gas bubbles bursting.

32. Human hair and fingernails continue to grow after death.

33. It takes about 20 seconds for a red blood cell to circle the whole body.

34. The plastic things on the end of shoelaces are called aglets.

35. Most soccer players run 7 miles in a game.

36. The only part of the body that has no blood supply is the cornea in the eye. It takes in oxygen directly from the air.

37. Every day 200 million couples make love, 400,000 babies are born, and 140,000 people die.

38. In most watch advertisements the time displayed on the watch is 10:10 because then the arms frame the brand of the watch (and make it look like it
is smiling).

39. Colgate faced big obstacle marketing toothpaste in Spanish speaking countries. Colgate translates into the command “go hang yourself.”

40. The only 2 animals that can see behind itself without turning its head are the rabbit and the parrot.

41. Intelligent people have more zinc and copper in their hair.

42. The average person laughs 13 times a day.

43. Do you know the names of the three wise monkeys?
They are: Mizaru (See no evil), Mikazaru (Hear no evil), and Mazaru (Speak no evil)

44. Women blink nearly twice as much as men.

45. German Shepherds bite humans more than any other breed of dog.

46. Large kangaroos cover more than 30 feet with each jump.

47. Whip makes a cracking sound because its tip moves faster than the speed of sound.

48. Two animal rights protesters were protesting at the cruelty of sending pigs to a slaughterhouse in Bonn. Suddenly the pigs, all two thousand of them, escaped through a broken fence and stampeded, trampling the two hapless protesters to death.

49. If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle; if the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died as a result of wounds received in battle; if the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural cause.

50. The human heart creates enough pressure while pumping to squirt blood 30 feet!!

I'm offering you sweet serenity.

I used to be proud of myself when I'm able to help other people. I remember two friends of mine whom I've helped and who said they'll forever be in debt of what I've done for them. Other than that, I am also proud of my ability to "read" other people. I am not saying that I am very professional in reading other people, that I am very good in doing this. It's just the way I gauge their voice and see through their eyes that I can read them. I'm pretty sure other people can do this too, so don't think of me as a super reader or anything in that effect. :)

But lately, I've been doubting myself regarding this. You see, I am crushing on (or can I say, falling for?) someone in my school. I'm sure those who know me really well already have an idea on what I've been doing to this guy for the past few days. Yes, I'm stalking him. Everytime I am interested in someone, it's really my nature to "investigate" about his life and ev'rything that surrounds him. I guess that's my way of figuring out if I should allow myself to continue falling for that someone or if I should stop myself. But this guy is different. I past by him everyday and I always try looking at his eyes to read him. But everytime I do, I always fail. I look at his eyes but all I can see is pitch black darkness. I can see his pupils but I can't read it. But I know something from his eyes: they're deep and a hiding place. What he hides in that dark deepness, that I don't know of.

This guy really blew me away. He got a swagger that really caught my attention the first time I ever saw him. I adore guys who can handle themselves in a crowd, who can walk in the middle as if they own the stage. Secondly, his smile. Dude, I fall for guys who got the sweetest smile in the universe. I remember the first time he smiled at me, he didn't say anything. He just stood there, looking at me and smiling. I'll relive that moment anytime to see his first smile again. Lastly, the brains. He got the brains, man. I mean, the brains, the effin brains. If there's something I really look ofr in a guy, then it's their brains. I don't give an eff if you're so hot or if you got the biggest pants bulge. If you got the brains then I'm definitely all in for you.

So, I've been stalking this guy, right? I now know where he lives, what his school schedule is, when his birthday is, where his locker is and yes, what he does on his free time. Sadly, it isn't all good. I can tolerate guys who drink and smoke. You see, I do that, too. So who the hell am I to judge a guy who drinks and smokes? But there's one thing I haven't dealt with before - smoking weed. If you haven't heard of weed before, then check this website.

So I assume you now know what weed is. Yes, weed is an informal name for marijuana. You read it right, marijuana. I asked one of my friends about him and the first thing he told me was "That guy is f*cked up! He smokes weed!". He even went as far as telling me that I should choose other guy than this guy I'm already crushing on. To tell you the truth, I was so shocked at first. The first thing I did was pich my cheek if I am really awake. I can never imagine someone with a smile like him and the brains (especially the brains!) like him to do such a thing. I kept telling myself that if he really got the brains, then why would he destroy his future by doing that.

I was heartbroken. Not because I like him, but because I can't accept the fact that someone like him smokes weed. Take away the fact that he does that, I can see him having a bright future. My friend told him that he is an only child. He's half Pinoy and half something else (which I won't tell because he might stumble upon this stupid blog of mine and discover I've been following him). Apparently, he only got influenced into smoking weed by his friends who have also been influenced by other people. He also got a bad temper, my friend said. Uh oh. I hate that part, too. I'm so fly and happy and I rarely get angry (except when provoked) and I love happy things so much. People always see me smiling and laughing out loud (swear!). How will I behave when paired with someone who gets angry easily?

So here's the real deal. A year ago, I promised myself that I will do good things to people every month of February, my birthday month. That promise started here (read the last two paragraphs). I chose my Mom as a starter last year (I know it's a good choiceÜ), and I think I already have the chosen one whom I'll help or do good to this year. HIM. I've already got plans on how I can start helping him. Of course this case is different from my mom's case. My mom knows I gave the gift, but this guy won't know who I am. I will be doing this not because I like him romantically, but because I think he is someone who he is worthy of being given another chance to have a bright future. I'll do this while I hide in the shadows. I pray to God that my plan will be successful. If this plan become successful, then my nineteenth birthday will be a memorable one.


PS:
I've already mentioned in my former blogs that I have this superhero syndrome. See? I guess I'm right. I know that like Superman & Batman, there will always come a time that I won't be able to save the people I want to help. But still, I'm gonna try. There's no harm in trying, right? And if I fail, if I fail helping him, at least I know I've done my best and who knows, maybe years from now, he'll wake up and remember this anonymous girl who once tried helping him and when that time comes, he'll have the initiative to help himself. If he does, I know I've helped him still and I succeeded.

UH OH!

I knew it! I really knew it from the start! See, my last entry post was last January 11, and today is January 15. I am really not good at keeping my blogs up to date. :(

Well anyways, many things happened in the span of time I haven't written here. American Idol has already started; my wrist (which I think is has carpal tunnel syndrome) has been feeling well this past few days; I have a new crush; midterms will start next week; we had a new lesson in chemistry; I think I'll get a good score in my recent Math test and just this afternoon, me and my groupmates in Religion interviewed a priest for our midterm presentation.

I have a new crush. But he's my friend and I don't think me "crushing" him is a good idea because I don't want to ruin what we have. I enjoy eating with him during lunch, laughing with him and our other friends and yes, I like it that he's so nice to me but still, teases me sometimes. I don't want him to know I like him because I don't want any awkwardness between the two of us. So I guess this "crush" will like be the others, eh? Unheard and won't be given a chance. :(

He is somewhere here. Ssshhh. Quiet. :*

Ok, let me switch topics. So my group interviewed a priest this afternoon. I really had a good time talking with Father Patrick. Oh, how I miss interviewing people! I miss my work in UST-CRS student publication. Haha. Anyways, we interviewed Father Patrick about marriage preparation. Here are some thoughts he gave us.

A. Marriage preparation begins at home. The children are most likely to carry out what they have seen in their house between their parents.

B. Relationships are built through COMMUNICATION. People should build bridges, not walls.

C. The basic thing in marriage is LOVE. Those involved in marriage should learn how to give and serve.

D. When the partners have no more time at home, when they don't give each other independence, when all love is done, it is not marriage anymore. It is exploitation.

E. Avoid selfishness. Give yourself, give what you have.

F. Young people contribute to the society.

These are great, eh? I especially adore A, B, C, D, E and F. Oh, I adore them all! Hahaha. Oh well. Love is all we need. <3

AI!

American Idol Season 9 starts tomorrow! I can't hardly wait! We're going to see another David Cook and Kris Allen! YAYYYY!

*Photo credits to laralaralara

Just For Today...

Decide to be happy, to live with what is yours. If you can't have what you want, maybe you can like what you have. Decide to be kind. Be cheerful. Be agreeable. Be friendly and understanding. BE YOUR BEST. Dress your best. Talk softly. Look for the bright side of things. Praise people instead of criticizing them.

Just for today, try it. After all, it's just for a day. Who knows? You might like it and do it again tomorrow. And the day after tomorrow and the day after the day after tomorrow and the day after that day. Then, what a life that would be. :)

A Girl and A Boy

The Notebook

Today, I thought about those girls at school who have a boyfriend. I wondered why I don't have one. Then I realized it's because I've been isolating myself all these months 'coz I haven't moved on yet from this certain Boy. Oh well.

A Broken Heart Is Better Than No Heart At All.

Things We Forget

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70 Things To Always Remember

70 Things To Always Remember:

1.To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world.

2.Your presence is a present to the world.

3.You are unique and one of a kind.

4.Your life can be what you want it to be.

5.Take the days just one at a time.

6.Count your blessings, not your troubles.

7.You will make it through whatever comes along.

8.Within you are so many answers.

9.Do not put limits on yourself.

10.Decisions are too important to leave to chance.

11.Reach for your peak, your goal and your prize.

12.Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.

13.The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets.

14.Do not take things too seriously.

15.Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.

16.Remember that a little love goes a long way. Remember that a lot … goes forever.

17.Remember that friendship is a wise investment.

18.Life’s treasure are people together.

19.Realize that it is never too late.

20.Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.

21.Have hearth and hope and happiness.

22.Life is 10% of what happens to you, and 90% of how you respond to it.

23.Don’t be afraid to learn. Knowledge is weightless, a treasure you can always
carry easily.

24.Take the time to wish upon a star.

25.Words are windows to the heart.

26.You are richer today if you have laughed, given or forgiven.

27.I don’t have to attend every argument I’m invited to.

28.Life is like an onion; you peel off one layer at a time and sometimes you weep.

29.Learn from the mistakes of others. You can’t live long enough to make them all
yourself.

30.A good example is the best sermon.

31.No one is easier to deceive than oneself.

32.The greatest fault of all is to be conscious of none.

33.Love is understanding, acceptance, and tenderness. If it tries to strangle and
possess, it is not love.

34.The journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step.

35.The task ahead of us is never as great as the Power within us.

36.Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so
that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

37.When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don’t see the one which has been opened for us.

38.The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you’ve ever had.

39.It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it, but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives.

40.Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

41.Always put yourself in others’ shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too.

42.The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

43.When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.

44.Live your life so that when you die, you’re the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

45.Anger is a condition in which the tongue works faster than the mind.

46.You can’t change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying over the future.

47.Love ……and you shall be loved.

48.All people smile in the same language.

49.A hug is a great gift..one size fits all. It can be given for any occasion and
it’s easy to exchange.

50.Everyone needs to be loved…especially when they do not deserve it.

51.The real measure of a man’s wealth is what he has invested in love.

52.Everything has beauty but not everyone sees it.

53.It’s important for parents to live the same things they teach.

54.If you fill your heart with regrets of yesterday and the worries of tomorrow, you
have no today to be thankful for.

55.Happy memories never wear out…. relive them as often as you want.

56.Home is the place where we grumble the most, but are often treated the best.

57.The choice you make today will usually affect tomorrow.

58.Take time to laugh for it is the music of the soul.

59.If anyone speaks badly of you, live so none will believe it.

60.Patience is the ability to idle your motor when you feel like stripping your
gears.

61.Love is strengthened by working through conflicts together.

62.The best thing parents can do for their children is to love each other.

63.Harsh words break no bones but they do break hearts.

64.To get out of a difficulty, one usually must go through it.

65.We take for granted the things that we should be giving thanks for.

66.Love is the only thing that can be divided without being diminished.

67.Happiness is enhanced by others but does not depend upon others.

68.For every minute you are angry with someone, you lose 60 seconds of happiness
that you can never get back.

69.Do what you can, for who you can, with what you have, and where you are.

70.AND DO NOT EVER FORGET… FOR EVEN A DAY HOW VERY SPECIAL YOU ARE!


*I'm about to sleep now. But this entry made me smile. I love feeling this nice, light feeling. <3 :)

*I'll be taking my skills assessment test tomorrow at George Brown! I'm so excited. If I pass this, there's a big chance I'll get accepted in the Practical Nursing program. ;)

All in A Day's Work

I just arrived ffrom school and I am so tired. Gahh. I have one homework but I will be doing 21 essays for my scholarship application. Yes, 21.

I need a laugh to get me going so I uploaded this photo. :D

Bye, Winter Break.

I can't actually believe I'm writing an entry about saying goodbye to winter break! After two weeks of sleeping late, waking up late, Criminal Minds marathon, Lord of the Rings movie, it's finally time to say hello to school again. Going to school is fine with me, it's the walking in the snow and negative wind chill that ticks me off. Oh my. After staying at home for the holidays, I'm going to walk using my heavy jacket and boots. Yes, I'm that lazy. But I know for sure that you'll understand me once you know how it feels to walk in the snow and wind chills!


I cannot make this blog longer anymore. I need to go to bed early so I can wake up at 5:30 (yes, I need to wake up early like that because I need to exercise and trim down these fats I got from eating too much during the holidays!!). Bye winter break. I surely will miss you.

PS: I studied Biology, Chemistry and a little Math over the winter break. I also studied playing some songs on the guitar. Yeheyyyy! :)

Pap Pa Rap Pa Pap...

It's snowing heavily outside today. I checked the Weather Network just moments ago and it said that Toronto is having a heavy snow fall until tonight and will experience a -22 wind chill. Yes, NEGATIVE 22 wind chill. Grrrrr.

If there's one thing that snow reminds me of, it's the Philippines. Every time I look out the window and see the snow outside, it reminds me of the days I spent in the Philippines. It makes me miss the warm weather of my native country and as a result, I long to feel it again. I've just been here in Canada for like 8 months but I'm already thinking that I have enough of this cold weather. I'm really craving to feel the heat of Pinas again...

Along with missing Pinas' heat, I also miss Filipino television, and in general, its commercials and tv advertisements. The one thing I miss the most are the McDo ads. I just think they are so Pinoy that it makes me glad I am one every time I see it. Here are some of my favorites.




A. Karen-Lolo

Ito, para sa paborito kong apo...si Karen.

This one is a classic. I think I was just an elementary student the first time I saw it. This one tells a bond shared between a lolo (grandfather) and his apo (granddaughter). Here in Canada, they have the elderly housing where people can "put" their old ones, and they are assured they will be taken good care of. I have volunteered to "work" in this kind of housing. The first time I stepped into the building, I can already feel the aura of the place. I didn't like it. And while I was walking with the other volunteers, we met some of the elders who live there and I can't help but smile at them. I just had the feeling that I should be kind to these people because one, they are already old and two, I would also like other people to be kind to my own grandparents. Knowing the elders inside that housing, I don't like to think that their families have already abandoned them, because the very reason why they are there is because their families want them to be taken care of. Knowing the people here in Canada, they are working two or three jobs and I think they won't have time to take care of old people anymore. I understand that. Why try to take care of someone if you don't have enough time when there is a place that can take care of them 24/7? In the Philippines, however busy someone is, they find time to take care of their elders. Yes, I think there are some elderly housing in the Philippines, but rarely you will see people putting their elders in there. My family, for example, still lived with my grandparents until the day we left for Canada. I promised myself that even if I marry someone who isn't a Filipino (which I think is unlikely because I swore I'll still marry a Filipino), I won't separate with my parents. maybe I'll live in other house, yes, but I'll still take care of them, cook food for them, etc. because I will be living near their house. You can watch the video here.




B. First Love

At kahit hindi rin naging kami sa huli, siya pa rin ang first love ko.

This one really made me smile and cry at the same time. Would you actually believed that I am crying now while I'm writing this? And to think that I have this watched this commercial for the nth time! I just really think this one tells it all - that everyone has a first love, and that even if he/she is your first, it doesn't mean that he/she will be the one you'll spend your life with. Adding to the dramatic-cute-ecstatic touch of the commercial is Eraserhead's Ang Huling El Bimbo. Need I say more? Watch the video and prepare to be touched.




C. Pamilyang Pinoy

Pana-panahon ang pagkakataon...maibabalik ba ang kahapon?

Mama, Papa, Glenn, Ate Nik, Kuya Pong, MaGing, Andrew, MaNeng, MaSel, PaGar, Yiel, Rogan, Emma, Tatay, MaYo, MaSel, Miguel, Debbie... you have just read my list of the people I love the most. Do I need to mention that they're my family? We are not always okay, we sometimes fight, we sometimes ticked each other off, but at the end of the day, the bottomline will always be the same, that we are family and we will be there for each other. This commercial made me realized that every moment I spend with my family is precious because time already spent is gone, no one can bring it back. I remember when I was still young. Me, my siblings and Kuya Pong, will spend the time playing charades, hide and seek, "name,place,things,", or simply just watch tv. That was the best memories I have of my childhood, when we spent the time together and enjoy it, laughing like there's no more tomorrow. Nowadays, we rarely do this. Kuya Pong has work, Ate Nik spends the time in the basement doing her projects and Glenn and I are engaged in our school works. Noel Cabangon's song (Kanlungan)broke my heart because of this. If only I can turn back time and be a child again, back when every night consists of playing with my siblings and my best cousin, back when every thing was still simple. Nevertheless, I am still thankful that we are together. These people, even if I'm offered a billion, thrillion or zillion dollars, are the ones I won't give up. Watch the commercial and see how lucky we are to have our Pinoy families.



Pap pa rap pa pap...love ko 'to.

Random Post 1

Based on the title, I assume you already have an idea on what this entry will be about. Thank you.

* I thought adults should already know what they're doing. That they should know what's right, what's wrong. I'm mistaken.

* When I grow up, I will be the best mom this world will ever see. I won't send my children to bed crying, I will tuck them in and say goodnight. I want to sing them a lullaby, but knowing my vocal range and singing abilities, I would think twice. I will try my best to be free during Saturdays, for I will make that a family activity day. I will teach them how to ride a bike, how to fly a kite, how to knit and sew, how to cook adobo and sinigang, how to fix a broken chair. I will sit with them infront of the tv, laughing at the characters of the show they like, cry with them if the handsome lead actor dies. I will play with them their video games, rejoice when Mario beats Bowser, get afraid when Nemesis shows up in Resident Evil, cringe when their character dies in Modern Warfare. Sundays will be church day, then after praising God, we will go to the mall for a serving of chocolate ice cream or a plate of cake and spaghetti. Weekdays will be study days. I will sit with them while they do their homeworks, correct their spelling, check their multiplication, smile at their art assignments. I will love their Dad with all my heart and be faithful in him until my last breath. And when I'm already in heaven, I'll look down at my kids and see them successful, happy and contented, I'll smile and know that I have done a good job of raising them up. :')

* My Kuya Pong will always be a hero. He will be that guy who saves the day, even without wearing a cape and a big belt. He is, and will always be, my childhood superhero. Even when I'm already 70, and he's 76.

* Blind - Lifehouse
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was beforeBut nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

* I recently found out that your heart can also be broken by the person you really really really love the most. And that person isn't the one you love *romantically*, not the person of the opposite sex that makes you blush. it's the person whom you taught will shield you all your life.

* Whoever you are that's reading this, I want to tell you that you are an awesome person. Somewhere out there, somebody loves you. Somewhere out there, some people are glad they're friends with you. Somewhere out there, somebody is regretting he/she/they let you go. You are unique. You are awesome. You are made in God's image. You are you.

* I have just proven that even when you're sad and down, life won't stop. The world will still go on. So it's your choice if you will just stay in the dark of your sadness, or go out and enjoy the sun that still continues to shine.

* I survived January 1, 2010. 364 days to go. I can do this!

* I know I'm watching too much CSI and Criminal Minds. Coz the idea of being a Canadian Intelligence Officer appeals me much. I have researched what the qualifications are to be one, and what the duties will be. Oh my. I sometimes hate my mind for being so imaginative and wide. But still, I like to be an Intelligence Officer. I will go out there and save people, catch the bad guys, make people happy. This is the closest I can be to my not-so-real-ambition --- be a superhero.

* I just want to let you know that you have not wasted your time reading my random post. Coz somewhere in the middle, you smiled when I said you're awesome. :)

* Rico Blanco will forver be the hottest Filipino singer. I am currently listening to Rivermaya's live version of 214 and I can't help but smile while hearing his voice. What makes him hotter/more awesome is that he can't only sing. He can also dance (see Ayuz video), act (watch Nasaan si Francis? indie film), compose and write (You'll Be Safe Here, for me, is his most astig words written). Want a plus? He finished Management Economics in Ateneo. A man of talent. looks and most of all, brains. Need I say more?

* Never cry yourself to sleep. You'll wake up with thise big bulgy eyes and your glasses won't fit you anymore.

* I still love being Nathalie. There's no chance in hell I'll choose another life to live.

* Smile. Even when you're sad. It erases the pain bit by bit. :)

They are the people you call FAMILY.

I am currently in the basement, using my Ate's laptop just to check my Facebook, my Tumblr and write this new post. Aside from Rivermaya's You'll be Safe Here (yes, I am forever a Rivermaya (Rico Blanco era) fan.), I can hear my cousins' footsteps, my aunt's voice, the sound of my other cousin's wails and the voice of my uncle. I can also hear the voice of my Ate saying, "Careful Rogan, you might fall!".

It's chaotic upstairs now. It's so noisy up there. That's why I'm hiding here in the basement.

But these chaos, this noise, are the things I'm grateful for everytime I wake up. Those voices, those noisy steps, are the things that make me smile everyday. I am glad I'll be spending my 2010 with these people. They are the people you call family. ;)

The Duenas cousins. Christmas 2009 Yuri, Nikki, Nath, Glenn, Yiel, Emma, Rogan

“You don't really understand human nature unless you know why a child on a merry-go-round will wave at his parents every time around - and why his parents will always wave back.” -William D. Tammeus